It's an odd thing.
How we're able to repeat our actions and train our subconscious to do the
talking and walking for us when the
rest of us is not there. "There" meaning in the present,
willing to do all the things we do in a single day if we chose to do any and
everything at all. But do you ever wonder how we manage to continue the same
pattern of how we rise in the morning and do it again the next day? Does it
help you to feel in control of something, anything, when everything else is
falling apart? Or is it just the right thing to do because you've been
taught to hit the alarm when it goes off and get up, straighten your bed, put
on the morning coffee, and get yourself ready for another joyous or tireless
day of going to that job or whatever you do in your day-to-day life.
So why get out
of bed when there's no reason to get up? How do you find a reason to continue
the same routine? You keep telling yourself, Today will be different. I'll make
a difference today...or just "give it a go, just one more
time". It must be scary for someone who has the fear of not knowing what
tomorrow will bring so they live in a state of anxiety and paranoia while
everyone else seems to easily and readily get going every day with no problem.
At least there's something to work with, something to give a biological or
chemical diagnosis towards, but what if you know there's nothing wrong with
you...
You've been doing the
same thing for as long as you can remember since your mother, if you've been
fortunate to hear the constant persistence engrained in you, Time to get up!
Get up sleepyhead! Or in my case a mother and an annoying cousin who happens
to call on a Saturday morning at 11 to "remind" you that you're still
in bed. Thinking about it makes me laugh inside because if you need someone to
get you going just allow a family member to call "out of the blue"
while you're in a sleep oasis to bring clarity to your life, or start your day off
wrong in my opinion.
It's engrained. It is
the way of life. Everyone else does it...your mother and father, your siblings,
your friends, your boyfriend or girlfriend, your neighbors, the mailman. That's
what it looks like, or so it seems. You can blame it on being sick why you
don't feel like getting out of bed, which is exactly how I'm feeling right now.
The difference is I'm feeling better today than I did 3 days ago but you just
lay there just wanting to lie in it, your bed, and your thoughts. Then
you can start giving a face to it. It's your frustration, anger, your
aggravation, your lost and brokenness, and just feeling tired. There's a
difference between your eyes partially closing from a long day and just feeling
the kind of tired that falls upon you when you wish it would go away.
When your life is not
on the right track or you find yourself questioning, why am I not where I want
to be? What is the easiest way to excuse it all away? What do you tell
yourself? This is what we should ask ourselves every day. What am I going to do
to make it better, what am I willing to change about myself or the
situation to make living my life better? It's about getting out of a place of
bad and ultimately reaching a place of "better" or good. I'm not an
expert otherwise I would be charging per session by now but I do think it's
what we should be talking about with each other and not rotating it over and
over again in our heads.
Maybe if we all
listened to each other instead of wanting to "hear" only ourselves
talk we can learn from what the other person is sharing and let it influence
the repair of the problems in our own lives. We talk so much, expletive, we
talk so damn much! If you only knew the people I know you would
understand how strongly I feel about this. It's like screaming inside of a
glass jar or more realistically behind a sound proof wall. The words you say
just float upward or dissipate while all you hear is a never-ending tractor trailer
collision and train horn steam-rolling on tracks of non-stop self-involvement.
Just by experiencing these kinds of people in my life I've felt the need to
personally teach myself to listen more and talk less. Unfortunately there are
times I get so passionate and opinionated about a TV show, the news, or what
someone has said or done that I must get it out. It could feel like a
"never-ending story" but I guess you're learning about that right now
with the length of this entry.
So how do you get out
of that bed you're supposed to at least get eight hours of sleep in at night?
Simple, just remind yourself you'll feel fatigued and experience the most
annoying energy-deprived bed cramps for a good part of the day. Side note, it
helps to have hot water in the shower beat down on the spot for a moment. Believe
me that is another issue to turn you into Oscar the Grouch while figuring out
how to change the scheme of crazy and bother in your life.
But in some unusual
way if there's any possibility that my ridiculous, mundane, below sea level
"average" life can make a difference with a pen full of sarcasm,
silliness, and sincerely good intentions continue reading and I'll be sure to
give you just that. Who knows it may give you something to smile about as you figure
out your own life or give it a jump-start in knowing you're not the only one who
is trying to pull their self out of the bed every day.
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